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What I’d Rather Not Think About: Shortlisted for the International Booker Prize 2024 Paperback – July 4, 2023
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SHORTLISTED FOR THE 2024 INTERNATIONAL BOOKER PRIZE
What happens when the person you’ve built your entire life on is suddenly gone?
This question lies at the heart of Jente Posthuma’s deceptively simple What I’d Rather Not Think About. The narrator is a twin whose brother has recently taken his own life. She looks back on their childhood, and tells of their adult lives: how her brother tried to find happiness, but lost himself in various men and the Bhagwan movement, though never completely.
In brief, precise vignettes, full of gentle melancholy and surprising humor, Posthuma tells the story of a depressive brother, viewed from the perspective of the sister who both loves and resents her twin, struggles to understand him, and misses him terribly.
- Print length224 pages
- LanguageEnglish
- PublisherScribe US
- Publication dateJuly 4, 2023
- Dimensions5 x 0.9 x 7.7 inches
- ISBN-101957363355
- ISBN-13978-1957363356
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Editorial Reviews
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“A unique story of a twin brother and sister, wryly funny and heartbreakingly sad. Her characters desperately try to make sense of our ever more complex world. This is a rare book. And Jente Posthuma is a treasure and a hell of a writer.”
―Herman Koch, international bestselling author of The Dinner
“From the opening pages of this novel I had no idea where it was going, but I trusted Posthuma completely. Tender, offbeat. and deftly drawn―I loved it.”
―Allee Richards, author of The Small Joys of Real Life
“Dutch novelist Posthuma returns with a sharp meditation on grief … The patchworked story of the twins’ bond and the brother’s fruitless search for meaning is woven with reflections … inventive and worthy.”
―Publishers Weekly
“What I’d Rather Not Think About is a forthright novel in which mental health, sexual orientation, and suicide are subjects of frank, empathetic consideration.”
―Foreword Reviews
“Through a delicately woven tale of memory, shared selfhood, and grief, the author takes us into the mind that struggles to understand a world shattered by loss, when one sibling dies and another is left to reconstitute the fragments. Poetic and surprising, Posthuma shows how even in the most intimate of connections, in another person lies the great unknown … Posthuma develops an affecting novel about grief by embracing its full complexity.”
―Asymptote Journal
“The strength here is truly in the minimalist prose―razor-sharp sentences that often slot together perfectly in a seemingly nonchalant way. The result is a powerful story about death, life and survival.”
―Nederlands Dagblad
“It is impossible to name everything that is beautiful about this novel. Posthuma needs few words to evoke a feeling or an atmosphere. She writes striking sentences that conjure up poignant images … this book deserves a large readership.”
―Literary Netherlands
“What makes What I'd Rather Not Think About rise above the average mourning novel is its utter authenticity. Posthuma associates, philosophizes, links memories to everyday actions, draws on films and television series and tries to interpret in a laconic, light-footed and pointed way. “Less is more” with Jente Posthuma. And again, she seems to be saying: nothing is “whole” here, in the subhuman. Everything rumbles, frays, and creaks.”
―The Telegraph
“Despite its melancholic theme, What I’d Rather Not Think About is infused with a similarly subtle, almost self-effacing humor that in this case expresses the narrator’s bewildered, tremulous path through life … This slim novel is packed with allusions to popular and high culture, history, science and current affairs, yet manages to feel simultaneously rich and uncluttered.”
―Linda Jaivin, The Saturday Paper
“[An] exquisitely vulnerable novel.”
―Cameron Woodhead, The Sydney Morning Herald
“In some ways it is tricky to recommend this book widely because of its difficult subject matter: it revolves around the grief of a twin who is trying to work out how to move forward in her own life after her brother, a long-term sufferer of depression, takes his own. To paraphrase the title, familial suicide and depression are certainly two of the key things many people would rather not think (or indeed read) about, but I want to tell you that this book is gorgeous. It is expertly crafted, moving, and at times startlingly funny, as the narrator tries to navigate the enormity of her loss … This short book contains a beautiful and compelling portrait of the grieving mind, as both storyteller and reader wander through the terrains of disbelief, regret, loneliness, and unending love.”
―Alison Huber, Readings
“[A] beautifully observed narration.”
―Marcus Hobson, NZ Booklovers
“A beautiful and strangely life-affirming evocation of grief.”
― The New European
“Tough to read but wonderfully rewarding.”
―Willow Heath
“What I’d Rather Not Think About … is excellent and another stand out of this year’s International Booker longlist.”
―The Bobosphere
About the Author
Jente Posthuma debuted in 2016 with People With No Charisma, which was published to critical acclaim. Her second novel, What I’d Rather Not Think About (2020) was shortlisted for the European Union Prize for Literature. The English-language translation by Sarah Timmer Harvey was shortlisted for the International Booker Prize 2024. The translation rights of What I’d Rather Not Think About have been sold to more than fifteen countries. Posthuma’s third book Witch! Witch! Witch! (2023) is an idiosyncratic and witty retelling of three ancient Dutch sagas. Posthuma is currently working on a memoir.
Sarah Timmer Harvey is a translator and writer currently based in Woodstock, New York. She holds an MFA from Columbia University in New York and a BA from Southern Cross University. Reconstruction, their translation of stories written by the Dutch-Surinamese writer Karin Amatmoekrim was published in 2020, and their translation of Thistle by Nadia de Vries was published in 2024. Sarah’s translations of Dutch-language poetry and prose have appeared in Modern Poetry in Translation, Asymptote, The Los Angeles Review, and elsewhere. Born in Australia, she lived and worked in the Netherlands for 14 years before moving to New York City in 2013.
Product details
- Publisher : Scribe US (July 4, 2023)
- Language : English
- Paperback : 224 pages
- ISBN-10 : 1957363355
- ISBN-13 : 978-1957363356
- Item Weight : 2.31 pounds
- Dimensions : 5 x 0.9 x 7.7 inches
- Best Sellers Rank: #825,033 in Books (See Top 100 in Books)
- #6,509 in Psychological Fiction (Books)
- #12,040 in Family Life Fiction (Books)
- #39,493 in Literary Fiction (Books)
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- Reviewed in the United States on March 24, 2024I can understand why "What I'd Rather Not Think About" made the long list for the International Booker: it is a moving story of a woman who lost her twin brother and doesn't know how to keep on without him. Short chapters with moments of lovely prose and insight. Highly recommend.
- Reviewed in the United States on May 2, 2024Shortlisted for the 2024 International Booker Prize. Posthuma's novel (translated from the Dutch) about fraternal twins, one of whom commits suicide, is told in a series of short vignettes. After her brother's death, the female twin spends time in his apartment, reading and rereading his journals in an attempt to understand him. Unfortunately, I did not find the novel compelling or moving, perhaps because the characters were just too quirky and because many of the twins' interests – Josef Mengele, the twin towers, Bernie Madoff, Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh (aka Osho) – seemed tangential to the novel at best, gratuitous at worst.
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- OtReviewed in Canada on October 14, 2024
3.0 out of 5 stars A forgettable collection of reminiscences and reflections
This first person story about a sister trying to make sense of her twin brother's suicide reads very much like a diary, consisting of recollections of her relationship with others and reflections on love and death. Most of the dozens of recollections are rather ordinary and uninteresting. She clung more to her brother than he did to her, and this bothered her. Her brother had no strong affinity to life, and ultimately chose death. There were a few engaging passages in the novel, such as the one in which the main character reflects on the monster, Mengele, who had a perverse interest in identical twins, and a penchant for performing mutilating surgeries on concentration camp prisoners. For the sister, her recollections were a part of the healing process, but the novel did not reach a level of memorable significance.
- WorkingMumReviewed in the United Kingdom on December 7, 2024
5.0 out of 5 stars One for twins!
Beautiful, sad, real. I loved it.